Alex looked at his cellphone trying to figure out how the Internet options worked, well he was trying but is was just an excuse. She was the reason he was still there. He had been waiting for the past 2 and something hours just to get a chance to see her again. To make sure that what had happened was real, he still couldn't believe what happened. That he had lost that much control and did what he did to her. He didn't know where the hell his mind was, because he was still mad as hell at her for leaving him. For not taking a chance on him but she would take a chance on a record deal. He hated her for moving on so easy, out at a club dressed the was she was, dancing the way she did.

     He looked up from his cellphone for a moment, and saw her come out of the back room, finally. Just as he looked back up from his cellphone to see where she was now, he saw Nick, towering over him,"Aw, hell! What are YOU doin' here?" He groaned.

     Nick took a seat next to him, "I could ask you the same thing. It's 1:30 and you are still here, in a club where Joce is."

     "How did you know that Joce was here?"

     Holding his own cellphone up, Nick sighed, "Shane called, he saw you here draggin' some girl off stage. He mentioned her wearing cross ring and necklace so I put 2 and 2 together. So what happened? I thought you hated her."

     "Man, I have no idea what happened. After the barbecue I picked up Sasha and we came here to party. And about an hour later in walks Joce with two other girls. And I am not just talking walked in, I am talking she walked in looking like - " Alex trailed off, he couldn't find the words.

     Nick looked out to the dance floor and his mouth dropped, "Looking like that?" He asked pointing at Jocelynn who was on the dance floor with a blonde girl.

     "Yea, like that. They headed for the bar and drank alot, so then they went to the stage and did a dance that.. man I don't know what the hell happened but I just stood there watching her. Then I lost it, I completely lost control and before I knew it I was dragging her into the bathroom with me and - "

      "Dude, did you guys,-- ah?" Nick asked. "She let you?"

     "We did but, I don't think she realized what was really going on. I didn't really give her a chance to protest. I just took." Alex admitted while hanging his head.

     Quietly Nick asked, "Did you force her?"

     Shaking his head, "I don't know. I gave her no options, but she went with it, I never felt that way, I felt like I was drunk or stoned. But I haven't had anything other then my soda. I hate that. It's fuckin' bullshit! She shouldn't have this much control over me." Alex slammed his fist on the table.

     Nick placed his hand on Alex's shoulder, "Dawg, I am not even gonna try to figure out how you feel or what it is your goin' through,. But, why don't we go get going. I still have to be up in like 5 hours to be at D. and Gina's."

     "Yeah, let's get going." Alex agreed as the stood up and left. As Alex headed for the door he saw Jocelynn, right as she turned and saw him. He watched as her eyes slowly widen a bit as she brought her hand to her neck, where a bruise had formed from his bite earlier. Guilty started to ridden his body and he let his head fall in shame slightly. As he looked up right before he got to the door, he looked back at her as saw her expression of anger and she turned away to dance with the guy who pulled her to him. Alex felt his fingers tighten and his hand form a fist.

     'Didn't take her too long to find some other fucker.' He thought as he walked out the door, nearly plowing Nick over in the process.

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     Jocelynn felt his eyes on her before she even saw him. She and Kara had been dancing on the floor with a few of Kara's friends but she stopped the minute she raised her eyes to his. Without realizing it she brought her hand to her neck and knew right then and there that her dream had in fact been reality. She was just about to walk over and slap that dazed look right off his face when one of the guys that they had been dancing with pulled her to him and dipped her backwards. When she got back up right she looked to find him gone.

     Taz walked up to them, "Hey da food is ready. I have it packed up for you to take home with ya."

     "Yea," Kara said, "We should probably get goin'."

     Nodding Joce agreed as the ladies walked off the floor, "Yeah, I have that 10am meeting with the recording suits. I doubt that it will be a good idea if I came to the signing hungover. Not to mention, I am gettin' tired."

     As Kara and Jocelynn left the club, she thought about picking up her cellphone and calling up Alex. She didn't know what the hell was goin' on with him, much less herself. She wanted so badly to be held in his arms again, but she knew that bridge had been burned. Well somewhat at least. Her neck stung slightly as the cool breeze blew on it and she rubbed the area with her free hand. As they drove back to Kara's place she heard her friend ask her.

     "Joce, did you know that guy?" Kara asked as they pulled into the driveway, "The one from the bathroom. I know you said that nothin' happened but, that is a load os shit!"

     "Huh? Oh right the bathroom, actually that was Alex, believe it or not." Joce admitted as they got out of the car and made their way into the house.

     "ALEX? That was McLean? Wow, he looks good with that lil extra weight to him. Now he isn't that stick thin." Kara mused as they went into the kitchen to eat their grub. "So, DID somethin' happen in there?"

     Joce rolled her eyes as she took a bite out of the cheese burger, "I dunno," She mumbled as she eat. After she swallowed the food she looked at Kara, "I mean, I know we did somthin' but I was so smashed that I ended up passing out afterwards."

     "Wow, that good that he got you to pass out? Shit, if you don't want him I will have him."

     Jocelynn looked up at her friend with raised eyebrows, "Aaaahhh, no!"

     "What you said that you two were over because you ran like a 'roo with a dingo chasin' him."

     "Kara, you punk!" Joce stood up and put the rest of her burger in the fridge. "I am crashin'. I have to be up in like," She looked at the clock. "Shit! it's 2:30am! I gotta be up in 5 hours so I can get there early once I find the place... aww hell..." Joce whinnied as she walked down the hallway toward her room.

     "So does that mean that I can have Alex?" Kara hollered after her.

     "Shut it Kara!"

     "I take that as a yes?"

     "Only if it's in the form of 'Yes when pigs fly out my ass'" Joce retorted as she closed the bedroom door. She went into the bathroom and washed her face. Then went to the bed and threw herself on the bed and passed out no sooner then her head hitting the pillow.

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     As Nick and Alex walked into the house they were greeted by China standing in the main hall way, wearing a pair of boxers and a t-shirt. She marched right up to them and looked at them straight in the eye, "You! You fowl loathsome evil little cockroach!" She yelled.

     "Aw hell Nick, you told her?"

     Nick shook his head, "I didn't say a damn thing."

     China looked with and evil grin, "Tell me about what? I wasn't talking about Alex! I was talking to you!" She directed at Nick, grabbing him by the collar of his jacket and dragged him down the hall with her. "It's payback time, you tease."

     Looking over his shoulder Nick smiled at a mouth dropped AJ, "Man it's good to be bossed around like this!"

     "I won't forget to kick your ass later thought Alex if the reason Nick left our bed was because you did somethin' that involved Joce." China smiled as she and Nick made their way up the stairs.

     Alex looked up at the stairs before heading up himself to go to his room, "What the hell is it with everyone slappin' me or threatening me lately?" He asked out loud as he headed for his own bed.