There was no single person to blame, he knew that he held majority of it though. She had been right about him being a hypocrite. Going from telling her he loved her, wanted to be with her, that he needed her, to going into the arms of Sasha without even another thought. He had given her more then one reason not to trust him, by his fling with Sasha and him accusing her of lying to him. As everyone jumped into their cars he stayed behind till there was only Kara, Taz and Joce. He watched them head for the car leaning on each other. He quickly ran up to them.

    "Hey, you guys are pretty hammered. Since I got left behind, why don't I drive you ladies home," he offered as he opened the car door for them each.

     Kara looked at him skeptically but knew that the 3 of them were probably a lil to tipsy to drive home. She laid Jocelynn across the back seat, leaning her up against Taz who was already in there leaning up against the opposite door. Joce was pretty much passed out, before her head even hit Taz's lap. Kara tossed him the keys as she hopped into the passenger side.

     "Fine," she agreed.

     Alex slide in and started the car, pulled out the parking spot, "So which way?"

     "Go left," pointing in the direction she told him. The car drive was pretty much uneventful, the only time when anyone spoke was when it was directions. When they pulled up to the house Alex jumped out right away and opened the door behind him and lifted Jocelynn into his arms.

     "I got her," was all he said when Kara glared at him wondering what the hell he thought he was doing,"No sense in waking her, she is gonna have a massive hangover and still has a video to shoot later." He said shrugging as he walked up to the front door of the house with the keys still in his hand.

     He managed to hold her while he unlocked and lightly kicked the door open with his foot. He carried her into the house, after realizing that he didn't know where to take her he leaned up against the wall and waited for Kara who was coming in after him with Taz.

     "Where to?"Alex asked her.

     "Jocelynn, door down the hall to the left," Kara said, "You, however, couch. Or I will call the Andros brothers."

     Alex re-adjusted the sleeping Joce in his arms and headed to her room, ignoring Kara's clear threat frankly he didn't give a damn if she called the human shields, "Good Night, Kara," was all that he said as he went into Joce's room. He carefully laid her on the bed, then went back to the door, locked it, and sat next to her. "Jocelynn, I know you can hear me." He whispered as he leaned over to her ear laying soft kisses on her face. "Wake up Joce."

     Jocelynn's mind felt heavy and foggy, she could hear Alex's voice, but she couldn't quite wake up fully. Her head and body felt incredibly heavy, she tried to open her eyes to see him. But she couldn't, and starting to believe that this was all a dream. She could see Alex clearly in her mind, for she had memorized every part of him that first night they were together. She felt his lips brush against her, and a soft slow sigh escaped her lips. God was this a great dream.

     "Alex," his name quietly came from her.

     Alex stretched out beside her, pulling her close to him, running his fingers through her fallen hair, "Baby, I am so sorry for what I have done. I shouldn't have been so hard on you about us. You were afraid and I ended up just giving you more reason to." He told her in a soft tone. "I will do anything to make it up to you. I just thought that by jumping in with her, I would forget the pain from you. I am not really used to the rejection thing."

     Snuggling against him Joce was listening to what he said, he was saying all the things that she wanted to hear, that she wanted to believe. God, if only this wasn't a dream. It was to good to be true, it had to be a dream, she tried desperately to open her eyes but her head just swam in the heavy fog from exhaustion and the alcohol. Slowly with all the strength she could gain she grabbed ahold of him as tight as she could, wrapping her hands in the sides of his shirt, fearing that he would disappear if she let go.

     "Honey are you awaking up?"Alex asked.

     "Hmmmm, god I hope not," She drawled. The sound of her voice set a fire through his veins, then he felt her head arc so that their faces were closer, she kissed him lightly at first. Then slowly both of their mouths opened, Alex could taste the traces alcohol in on her mouth but her kisses itself was enough for him to completely lose control. He grabbed at her back holding her too him as tight as he could as their kiss deepened. Slowly he ran his hands down her back to the top of her kacki pants, he hooked his thumbs in them and ran them back to the front of her pants where he easily unhooked them. Then pulled them down as far as he could he leaned over so that she was on her back. Breaking the kiss he moved down her body to take them  all the way off.

     "Alex- don't leave. " She sighed trying to grab for him, fearing that her dream was ending, much to soon. A small quiet sob felt her lips, she didn't want to be alone right now, even if he was with her only in a dream.

     Alex quickly removed his own clothing as he laid back down covering her, it amazed him how much just a kiss from her would make him lose all control that he had. Within his mind he knew that she wasn't fully awake, that she was somewhere in between, but god how he need to be with her right now. Knowing that she wanted and needed him to only made it more difficult for him to think straight. She slowly wrapped her arms around him, her eyes still closed.

     "Don't leave me,"

     Kissing her face as he pulled up her shirt over her head and threw it on the floor, "Only if you promise not to make me, I don't ever want to leave." He said as he kissed her throat. Feeling her hips move against his own he couldn't help himself. Placing his hands on her hips he shifted them to meet his own and agonizingly slowly he pushed himself deep with in her. Tears filled his eyes as he felt how well they fit each other, so warm so tight, then a pang of guilt washed over him as he realized that she hadn't done as he did. That she hadn't been anyone since him, and he felt the tears fall down his face as he buried his head in between her chest and the hallow of her throat.

     "I am going to make it up to you, Joce. I will until you believe and and feel that you cannot live with out me. That you love me more then anything," He promised as he started to move with in her, pulling all the way out and going back in slowly.

     Rotating her hips in attempt to keep him within her, Jocelynn grabbed onto his back tightly, wanting it to never end but needing the release. Her mind became even more cloudy with every slow thrust from him, making her feel as if she was dying a beautiful death. More and more the thrust started to quicken in pace, going deeper and deeper into her till it was almost painful. But she couldn't get enough, her body arched against him. Alex moved his right hand to behind her neck holding her tightly.

     "Oh gawd, Jocelynn." He rasped against the hallow of her throat feeling that he was just about explode within her. He knew that she was as close as he was because her body started to tense up. Their hearts somehow fell into the same rhythm, running faster and faster as if to beat each other. Just then their bodies shook together as they fell over the peak. Alex latched on her shoulder as Jocelynn's back jerked up and her eyes shot open and she thought that she saw flames in front of her as she felt her body exploded. For a moment she thought that her heart nearly stopped, then her eyes rolled back and she collapsed on the bed. As his body finally relaxed Alex didn't have the strength to move, and ended up just laying on top of her, not even bothering to pull himself out of her.

    "I love you-"passed from her lips as she passed out from sheer exhaustion.

    Alex felt his heart nearly burst at hearing her say those words, "We will figure it all out later," He promised and he too passed out laying his head on her chest, "I love you Joce."